Okay, it's post-graduation, and post-camp and seeing as I have more free time than the average bear I figure what better time to start blogging again?
For now a short, incomplete update:
I am a nanny on weekdays in the afternoon and two to three days a week I help out at mom's office. The money I'm making is helping me to finally build up some savings which is way good because I start paying off my school loans soon.
Every Friday morning I volunteer as a Keeper Aide in the Elephant House at the Nat'l Zoo. I love it and even though I have to get up at o'dark thirty in the morning, I look forward to going every week. I'm thinking of adding another day--possibly at the Small Mammal House if I can get it.
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Monday, May 4, 2009
"My denial is wearing off."
It's been hitting me little by little. Which, now that I think about it, is probably a lot better than it hitting me all at once. Anyway, I'm graduating and I'm kind of losing my cool.
I was talking with my roommate about graduation and I realized that I'll be driving back from graduation, away from Del Val, by myself. Not really looking forward to that trip. Hillary suggested I ask one of my parents to ride in the car with me since they'll be at the ceremony. I told her that would be worse.
Friends and I went to the movies the other night and on the way home I realized that I only had two more Fridays left. For some reason, that was the first thing to make my eyes tear up about all this. It's the only thing so far, but we'll see how long I can hold out.
I was talking with friends the other day about...something, I don't remember what, and something was said that caused me to talk about how I was glad one of my friendships ended because it was keeping me too strongly tied to MD and I wasn't "fully embracing" my life at Del Val. I'm so glad I finally did, even if it does mean that I'm leaving home. I hadn't put it into words before then. I'm graduating and moving back to Maryland full time, back to where I came from, but I'm leaving Home.
I'm not scared to graduate anymore. I know that God has a plan for me, and that it's better than any plan I could come up with. It's all in His hands, and it's going to work out. So I'm not scared about it anymore. I'm just sad. Deeply sad.
I was talking with my roommate about graduation and I realized that I'll be driving back from graduation, away from Del Val, by myself. Not really looking forward to that trip. Hillary suggested I ask one of my parents to ride in the car with me since they'll be at the ceremony. I told her that would be worse.
Friends and I went to the movies the other night and on the way home I realized that I only had two more Fridays left. For some reason, that was the first thing to make my eyes tear up about all this. It's the only thing so far, but we'll see how long I can hold out.
I was talking with friends the other day about...something, I don't remember what, and something was said that caused me to talk about how I was glad one of my friendships ended because it was keeping me too strongly tied to MD and I wasn't "fully embracing" my life at Del Val. I'm so glad I finally did, even if it does mean that I'm leaving home. I hadn't put it into words before then. I'm graduating and moving back to Maryland full time, back to where I came from, but I'm leaving Home.
I'm not scared to graduate anymore. I know that God has a plan for me, and that it's better than any plan I could come up with. It's all in His hands, and it's going to work out. So I'm not scared about it anymore. I'm just sad. Deeply sad.
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
"Be an Example"
An excerpt from the Bible Study I just wrote out for tonight:
As I’ve been thinking about this ["this"= being an example] and related topics, I have been reminded once again that I’m not perfect. I am a sinner and I slip up over and over again. I’m not perfect, only He is perfect. I’m not perfect, but I don’t want my imperfection to get in the way of someone else’s journey toward perfection. I’m not perfect, but I want to act as perfect as I possibly can so that I can only be a support to others on their journey. I’ve said before that I wanted to be a person that "non-believers" could look to and watch to know what was right and wrong [if they were in a situation that caused them to question whether or not the action they were considering taking was a good thing to do. I want to try to be on my best behavior all the time and be the sort of person they know would choose the right action]. Recently I’ve come to the conclusion that not only should I try hard “publicly” in that way, but that I need to also be on my best behavior when I’m with my fellow Christians, especially those I’m most comfortable with. It’s so easy to slip into gossip for example. Anyway, this is just food for thought.
As I’ve been thinking about this ["this"= being an example] and related topics, I have been reminded once again that I’m not perfect. I am a sinner and I slip up over and over again. I’m not perfect, only He is perfect. I’m not perfect, but I don’t want my imperfection to get in the way of someone else’s journey toward perfection. I’m not perfect, but I want to act as perfect as I possibly can so that I can only be a support to others on their journey. I’ve said before that I wanted to be a person that "non-believers" could look to and watch to know what was right and wrong [if they were in a situation that caused them to question whether or not the action they were considering taking was a good thing to do. I want to try to be on my best behavior all the time and be the sort of person they know would choose the right action]. Recently I’ve come to the conclusion that not only should I try hard “publicly” in that way, but that I need to also be on my best behavior when I’m with my fellow Christians, especially those I’m most comfortable with. It’s so easy to slip into gossip for example. Anyway, this is just food for thought.
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