Is it the weather? Is it the stress of school? Was I just on a high for too long, and now I'm paying for that pleasure?
Stop the ride! I wanna get off!
Ok, maybe not... I'd forgotten what this feels like. It's not terrible...just...I prefer the happiness and excitement I felt on a daily basis. Duh, right? The past few days I've just felt...unsteady. Not high, almost low, but...never really stable. Some sort of roller coaster with very short slopes.
I think there is some sort of battle going on inside of me. Depression vs....what? God? Well, yes. But more specifically? I guess if I could figure that out I could help it win.
I want the sun to come back out. I want to stop feeling...paranoid about my new friends. That always seems to happen eventually... *sigh* I'll just spend less time with them. Just because I'm so happy in their presence doesn't mean they're always as psyched about it as I am. Oh, well.
Garbled.
1 comment:
"Every town
Has its ups and downs
Sometimes ups
Outnumber the downs
But not in Nottingham"
your post made me think of this today. I'm sorry you're feeling downish. I hear ya though. Life is just hard sometimes and you can recognize that fact, but that doesn't make it any easier to move on. :P Hope everything gets better soon.
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